Stop and Smell the Flowers

Today was a rough day...

While I was driving my daughter to Day Care this morning I drove past a familiar place my best friend, Meghan and I used to visit. We had many inside jokes about this place, we laughed, cried and built friendships at this place. It was OUR secret place that we would go to unwind, think, sit and talk about the crazy world, our love lives and gossip about anything and everything. As I drove past I felt this odd feeling. It was almost like a movie. The world stopped, I began a journey into la-la land. All of a sudden I was taken back to a time when we sat there, at 3 a.m, and gossiped about a boy. As this memory came to mind I laughed out loud, I cried a little and instantly grabbed my phone to call my best friend to laugh with her.

It was then that I realized again that she was not there. I did it, again... and it's been three years since she's passed. It is STILL so hard to believe she is gone. It seems like yesterday that she was here sitting in our apartment laughing and sipping red wine. So much time has passed... I just want to rewind life.

Today I needed a good laugh on my way to work... it had been a long weekend at the office, a headache at home and my Boss returned today. I was dreading it... Meghan was always the person to cheer me up - make me laugh by doing something silly when I was down - play my favorite song and start dancing all crazy - post pictures to scare the crap out of me around our apartment - and be the best friend ever. She knew when I was sad and needed a good laugh, or scare... even when I tried my best not to show it. Today was one of those days.

I guess that's Gods way of telling me to slow down. As I drove past our old memories I laughed, I cried and I reminisced. I did exactly what Meghan would do. I drive past this place numerous times a week, and not once have I slowed down to remember the past memories made there. I need to watch more closely, I need to stop and smell the flowers, laugh and be sad at the same time. I need to thank God more often.

I was reminded of two things today...
1- God is ALWAYS there. He is giving you a hand when you need it most. Even if it takes you by surprise and you laugh out loud, and look like a fool because you're in the car alone... It's okay. It's Gods medicine for the soul.
2- Your best friend is ALWAYS going to be your best friend and be there for you, even when you least expect it.

M.C.V
My guardian angel.