Happy Tuesday.

It's an early morning. 

Coffee with hazelnut cream, old episodes of Sex and The City on T.V because, let's face it... who wants to watch the news right now? It's filled with horrifying terrorism news and sad news about children dying all over the world from diseases. I feel blessed this morning as I sit here and think about my life after turning off the news and distancing myself from reality.

My morning is going to be slow and lazy as I sit here and blog instead of going to the gym. I really should have gotten up this morning when my hubs did and gone to the gym instead of make a half-pot of coffee. But, it's so cold outside and so warm under this cozy blanket on my couch. Why is fall the lazy season after all?

I think I am just blogging to ramble this morning so I feel more sane getting my thoughts out on paper.

But, In reality I am just having high anxiety, I am a little sad and a little nauseated... maybe that's just cramps? Who really knows. I have boat loads of homework that's not getting done right now... or later because, I am having drinks with a friend after work. And, I have anxiety because we are still... impatiently... very annoyingly... waiting to hear back from our mortgage company about our house approval. I am seriously just getting anxious about moving in! 

Today is my late best friends birthday. I feel a little weird saying it like that.
"Late", sounds so officially gone. I can't believe it's been five years since I last saw her, talked to her and hung out with her. I feel like she is still here, and maybe she is. Maybe she's watching over us, and I am okay with that. So, tonight I will celebrate as if she's still here. Catching up with a new best friend whom I have had the pleasure of meeting, ironically... one night at a bar. We are going to celebrate friendship and the love that comes after loss. Because, we wouldn't be where we are today.... she wouldn't have the two beautiful children she has... or the wonderful marriage. Let's face it, maybe things happen for a reason. 

Happy Birthday, Meghan.

Happy Tuesday.