Happy Crazy Thursday!

It's Thursday and it's already been one heck of a week! 

Between doctors appointments, preschool, chiropractor appointments, 

Dan's crazy, terrible long-houred work schedule, cleaning, laundry and now fleas...

it's enough to make a mom go crazy.

It's almost been a year now that I lost my job and moved on to being a SAHM. One year ago I dreamed of this job, being a full time mom that is. Being a full time stay at home mom to me meant playing, crafting, fun days and bedtime cuddles every night... shoot, even cleaning was exciting to me if it meant I was able to be home more and be involved in L's life more than I was.

I think I have posted this in my blog's way too many times before but I will say it again... 

Being a SAHM is hard work, demanding work, long hours, and it means I never get a day off. I don't sit on my ass all day and do nothing. I am lucky if I sit for 5 minutes to drink my coffee before L wants to play, read, draw, get play-doh out, etc. I love it, I really love it but some days are harder than others. Some days I want to rip my hair out, scream and cry in a corner and never come out. 

That was yesterday.

Long story short... we found fleas on Luke. 

I called Dan bawling my eyes out because after cleaning and doing my daily chores of regular laundry, as we were getting ready for nap time I happened to brush Luke and found fleas. I lost it, begged for him to come home from work, freaked out about my house being infested, and started researching things to do that work and called the vet!

So, since yesterday I have done about 8 loads of laundry, vacuumed the house more than I have in a month, washed every surface I possibly could reach and the ones I couldn't I dusted or shopvac'd like a crazy woman. I have changed all the bedding, vaccumed mattresses, washed Luke's toys, Lennon's toys, etc. given him medicine, a bath, combed him a bajillion-katrillion times and... whew... fingers crossed... haven't seen a flea since.

Well, in the midst of all this, I neglected my daughter.

I realized this today after I spent over two hours vacuuming my house, cleaning the garage, throwing more loads of blankets in, folding laundry that was done, putting clean laundry away, etc. etc. etc. I made lunch for her and I and we sat together to eat in peace and quiet - it was so nice! After lunch was done it was only about 12:30PM so instead of letting her go outside and ride her bike I told her we could after I threw laundry in and cleaned up. Well, 5 minutes of laundry turned into over two hours of work. I came upstairs, looked at the clock and it was 2:45!!!! I went to check on L and she was sitting on the floor in the same position I left her in, watching the iPad.

I scooped her up, got her ready for nap and she of course cried asking to ride her bike now and said, "but mom, you promised!!!", and once she said that I was heartbroken!

We cuddled in bed like we normally do but this time she laid right on my arm, snuggled up to me, kept saying "mom I miss you... mom, I love you" and then fell asleep in seconds! I laid awake wanting to cry, hold her forever and never let go. We napped together like this for over an hour. I fell asleep feeling guilty because earlier all I was thinking about was all the cleaning I had left to do, whether or not my dog was going to get fleas on her bed and I was clearly too tired to think anymore when I passed right out... but, not before taking these sweet pictures.

We woke up from nap time and I felt so guilty. The entire day was spent hauling her off to preschool, running errands, eating lunch and then leaving her by herself to watch the iPad for hours... I cried. 

F'ing emotional pregnancy, I tell ya! 

So I decided to make a quick dinner for us and then surprise her with some mommy & me time at open swim tonight! Off to the pool we went and seriously, her facial expression was so priceless! We spent hours at the pool swimming, chasing each other in the lap pool, jumping in the deep end, playing in the fountains and hopping like a bunny rabbit in the shallow water. It was a blast! It was so nice to be able to leave my house, to put cleaning on hold, leave my phone alone and just have fun! I don't think I've laughed that hard in the past two days. I am so thankful for this little bundle of joy, giggles and excitement. I need more moments like this! Look at that face of pure excitement... that face made my night!

So, after a long night of swimming she is exhausted, I am exhausted but we are both happier than ever. When we got home daddy helped her get pj's on and get ready for bed and she told him all about her day at the pool. She was overjoyed and so happy. It's a blessing to see her so happy! I promised her we could take a long bike ride tomorrow BEFORE we venture off to Meijer for more cleaning supplies and spend hours vacuuming and doing more loads of laundry. Then we will spend the weekend together doing whatever she wants... and maybe after church we can go to a Pumpkin Farm. Oh, and other than making her Halloween costume we will probably be making some halloween decorations and playing play-doh! Thank goodness the weekend is coming!

Goodnight!

XO.