In the Blink of an Eye

I feel my life going a mile a minute... A mile a second... Or faster.

I can remember yesterday, the day before that and then it's all a blur. A collage of life, love, emotions all on a merry go round spinning faster by the day. I can remember when I was pregnant, living in a big city filled with sounds and lights, museums on every corner and hot dog stands galore. Now I am trapped in a city of hate, trash, and dead end jobs. I go to work, I come home, eat, sleep and repeat the next day. No excitement, no adventure, and no end to the madness of a crazy, Cruela-like boss. What happens in two years when I look back at my life now... Will I regret working at a dead end, horrible job that I get no credit for the work I do? Or will I reminisce of the good times I had living in good ol' Saginaw, MI? Will I be stuck here? Will I move back to a big city? The questions are never ending...

In the blink of an eye my life changed. I fell back into a whirlwind of emotions after I had my daughter. I am in a pool of love, laughter, and joy. I sat there that early morning and I cried tears of joy as I looked at her father holding her for the very first time. He held her so tight and smiled and rocked her. We were both awestruck as we sat there thinking, "okay, now what?" The nurses don't go home with you, the baby does... Are we ready for this? In the blink of an eye our lives changed. A few horrible pushes and screams and there she was. Our little miracle.

Now she is 6 months old, babbling, saying DaDa and grabbing everything in sight. Lennons learning more every single day and I feel like I can't remember the new born days anymore. I have learned to videotape every single thing so I don't blink and miss it anymore.

I cannot believe how much my life has changed in the past year and a half. I am a mom, a fiancé, a soon to be wife, daughter in law, and I am so thankful that everyone who is in my life right now stuck by my side through it all.

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