Paci's and Crickets

The window is open, a cool breeze is blowing in and all I hear is the sweet sound of paci smacking on little lips and crickets. 

Crickets and pacifiers and my world is perfect.

Lately my world has been a roller coaster ride. I've been stressed out, I haven't been myself, I've been avoiding work, avoiding my family, my friends, everything and it's all because of my wonderful life at the moment.  To say the least it's consisted of ... Cramps, nerves about my upcoming surgery, more cramps, flu last week, a terribly awful new boss we ALL hate (and I mean every last one of us!), stress, a two year old who will not go to sleep alone (and wakes up at the ass crack of dawn EVERY.SINGLE.NIGHT), arguing with my hubby about everything because let's face it... I'm an emotional bitch right now thanks to these cramps that are causing a world war in my ovaries... and last but not least I have school starting soon and this shit in my life better be over before that! Well.. That literally sums up my life right now! 

So yes, I've been stressed. Depressed. Overly cranky and irritated about ... Well... Let's just say EVERYTHING!

To my friends without kids... You've been warned. "Terrible two's" DOES exist. But it's more along the lines of being called;  "attachment problems", "cranky because I'm teething these huge ass molars", "whine about everything Because I can talk now..." phase. It will pass like every other phase until now in my child's life but this phase at this very moment truly sucks. My husband and I don't sleep, we wake up early and just never catch a break.

To my friends I never see or hangout with... This is why. If you have kids you'll understand. If you don't, I hope you can put yourself in my shoes for 5 seconds. 

To my best friend, thank you for being so awesome! I can't take a weekend and go away on our "moms weekend", or should we just stick to "ladies weekend out..."? "Moms weekend" makes us sound old and married. Married yes but, old we are not! After the couple weeks I've been having it's much needed! I can't wait. :)

I have sat next to my daughters bed now for the length of time it took me to write this blog and I hear her sigh, snore a little and she looks so cozy curled up under a pink fuzzy blankey. Moments like this make my life feel sane, calm and complete. Worries and stress gone, I kiss my daughter on the forehead and I can only hope and pray her dreams are good ones tonight. :) (only because neither one of us want to get up at 2am again)! Hehe. 

Xo.