Not a little bit like your first kiss in High School... or even the feeling of being proposed to... (that was more of a stomach in the throat feeling anyway). No. I'm talking about your heart just being so overjoyed with LOVE and that mushy-gushy-warmth feeling that you literally melt. Your heart sinks, your body gets warm like the feeling of drinking coffee on a cold morning and you sink into an emotional trance for a moment.
Has that happened to you?
It happened to me.
This morning when my little Lennon said, "Momma, I wanna cuddle you". Yep. I physically, emotionally, mentally... melted. I don't even think it was just my heart... I think it was my entire body that melted into the corner of the couch as she put her little curly blonde head on my shoulder and wrapped her silky blankey around her hands with her little paci in her mouth. I couldn't stop smiling. I kissed her head, I held her hand and I told her I loved her about a million times, as if she doesn't hear it enough. Dan and I both smiled at each other like we just knew what each other was thinking. We fell in love a little bit more with each other, being parents and little L.
I am so in love with being a mom, how could you not be in love with being a MOM? I don't know why I didn't do it earlier. HA! Who am I kidding? But seriously, being a mom has changed my life, being a DAD has changed my husbands life and we couldn't even imagine where we would be without her. I want to give my daughter the world. I want to protect her from that same world. There are so many things I could go on and on and on about... but truth is, I love my daughter and I love the fact that I know what it feels like to melt... because I am so completely in love!
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