Baby Bump | 9 Months + 3 Weeks

Almost there... 

1 more week to my (first) due date! 

How far along: 38 Weeks / 9 Months + 3 Weeks

Due Date: December 4, 2015 was our original due date. However, it's changed now to 11/30!

Baby Size: Approx. 19-22 in. / 6.5 - 7 lbs. 

Weight Gain: About 8-9 lbs. so far! 

Gender: GIRL 

Sleep: Sleep... what's that? This week has been terrible for sleeping! Snoring husband, tossing and turning, huge belly, cramps, getting up to pee. No sleep for this tired mama! 

I am feeling: Feeling anxious... I just want to get everything done, decorate our house for Christmas now that Thanksgiving has come and gone... and be ready to bring baby girl home.

Cravings: Craving all things related to thanksgiving except the turkey itself... pie, mashed potatoes and all the other delicious Thanksgiving leftovers. YUM.

Currently loving: I am loving food... everything is so delicious lately except for meat. 

Currently hating: I hate the fact that I can't sleep. I am a zombie when I don't sleep. I hate that I can't catch a break, get a pedicure that I want, and a massage... I hate that none of my clothes fit... You name it, I hate it. The end of this pregnancy has made me one crabby mama. 

Happy Due Date, Baby!

HAPPY DUE DATE! 

Unfortunately I don't think baby girl got the eviction notice.

How far along: 40 Weeks ... HOLY CRAP, I anticipated the end coming but now than it is finally here I feel like this entire pregnancy flew by.

Due Date: TODAY! HOORAY. (Well, the original due date anyway... we are 6 days past the due date the other doctor gave us!) Oh well, baby girl we are ready for you any day now! 

Baby Size: Approx. 20 in. / 7.5 lbs. / the size of a small pumpkin

Weight Gain: Since my pre-pregnancy weight I am UP 11 lbs! No complaints here.  

Gender: GIRL 

Sleep: Thankfully, I have an amazing husband who rubs my back until I fall asleep. It's so calming, relaxing and of course helps with the excruciating back pain from this baby's awkward position in there! I have been sleeping great at night lately and little Lennon rests long enough to watch Tarzan and let me snooze on the couch for an hour or so. At this stage in my pregnancy I really need that mid-day break. I have no idea how I would manage if I was still working... I would be sleeping on my desk or walking around like a zombie! Thank goodness for being a stay at home mom! 

I am feeling: Feeling... hmm, I have a lot of emotions running through me right now. I am happy, excited, anxious, nervous a bit for labor but to sum it up I am so OVER IT. I waddle, I have constant headaches and heartburn, I can't stand up quickly without having to pee, I can't see my feet but I know they're the size of Texas and nothing fits me right now. I am feeling defeated by this pregnancy and just praying something changes soon... Yesterday I had a couple pretty strong contractions that were about 8 min. apart then as I waited for more nothing happened. GRR! At my appointment on Monday (39 weeks) I was 1cm dilated, 50% effaced and her head is engaged! My midwife says it's almost go time... just waiting on that stubborn little girl. She is also posterior and her head is face up, so her spine is pushing against my spine and my doula seems to think that is causing a lot of the back pain I am having. I am also seriously struggling with the fact that it's the end... which means it's almost time to bring a new baby home... which means it's no longer all about Lennon. I am worried about the adjustment, although I know she will do great. I am worried about the adjustment for me... I have just been holding her so close, snuggling every single chance I get and making sure that I am always here to listen, love, be silly, play and be attentive to her right now. It's only a matter of time before she's not the only little girl in the house. Speaking of being silly...  Macbook photoshoot. :) 

Cravings: This week my cravings have been lots of iced water, cookies and fresh fruit. Such a weird combination but it works for a pregnant lady!

Currently loving: I am loving all of the gifts given to us by family and friends so far. Baby girl has a beautiful new handmade blanket, matching booties that were do delicately knit for her feet, new sleepers and onesies, new diapers, bows, a rock & play, etc. We are so grateful for everything our family has done for us to get ready for her arrival. We are ready to snuggle her up and announce her to the world. I can't wait to share her name with everyone! I am so loving everyone's guesstimates for baby girls birthday. My prediction was 12/1... that came and went. My friend, my mom and Lennon guessed 12/3... that came and went... Now it's 12/4 and since only about 5% of babies come on their due date I am guessing Dan may be right in his prediction of 12/8. Any other guesses out there? 

Currently hating: I hate the smell of any kind of food lately. I love eating it, but the smell of food cooking in the house makes me nauseated. Thankfully we have leftovers and lots of frozen food to pop in the oven! Other than that, I feel like no matter how much I sleep and rest I can't get enough. I am always tired, exhausted actually and feel like I can't keep my eyes open! 

GAME PLAN

If nothing happens this weekend we have an appointment Monday to strip my membranes, do an NST and AFI Ultrasound to ensure baby girl is healthy and doing well in there. Let's pray that something happens this weekend or AFTER our appointment Monday... I just really don't want to share my anniversary with baby girls birthday...  too selfish??? So here's to LOTS of walking, bouncing on my yoga ball, eating pineapple, spicy foods and any other recommendations or old wives tales that seem to work besides Castor Oil - yuck! Then of course everything on this list - Natural Ways to Induce Labor (Past 40 Weeks) So, someone bring me lunch or dinner, or both... or just homemade chocolate chip or snickerdoodle cookies with my moms recipe... Please!

Other than that game plan, my goal is to make this birth as great as possible. Our plan is to labor in peace and quiet alone, together with our midwife and doula. This time I am planning a natural birth so I will not be given pain medication unless absolutely necessary for my health or the health of the baby. Therefore, I will be trying to stay as relaxed as possible... No phones, no Facebook, etc. I will also be moving a lot, trying different labor positions and overall trying to make the labor process as painless as possible using natural methods. We will not be posting anything online announcing when we are in labor. We will update our friends and family when we are ready to announce that baby has arrived when we are healthy and settled in at home to ensure our privacy, relaxation and to focus on labor & delivery.

Love you all! Say your prayers for a safe delivery, and a happy & healthy baby girl! 

Baby Bump | 9 Months + 2 Weeks

How far along: 38 Weeks / 9 Months + 2 Weeks
Due Date: December 4, 2015 was our original due date. However, the doctor we saw at our maternal fetal medicine ultrasound showed us that baby is measuring ahead and we are now at November 30, 2015 for our due date based on baby measurements - which is likely more accurate anyway. I can't believe it's only weeks away! November sure did come up fast this year!

Baby Size: Approx. 19-22 in. / 6.5 lbs. / about the size of a swiss chard (what's that? lol!) 

Weight Gain: 
Gender: GIRL 
Sleep: I am so exhausted by the end of the day lately that I sleep great. I've only been getting up a few times a night lately and thankfully I am able to fall right back asleep!
I am feeling: This week I have been having a lot of ups and downs. Emotionally, physically, mentally... trying to prepare everything, make sure it's perfect, make sure I am ready, Lennon is ready, Dan is ready for time off. There's not much left to do after this weekend being so productive - thank goodness for a hardworking hubs who got the carseat, bassinet and crib done this weekend! Nothin' like procrastinating as second time parents! :) 
Cravings: This week my cravings have been water, water, water and LOTS of it! I feel like I am never hydrated enough lately. I love pineapple, sandwiches (with deli meat... whatever!), and sweets. All I want is my mom's homemade snickerdoodles. I mean, I won't be too terribly sad if I don't make it to Thanksgiving dinner because I know there will be leftovers BUT, I really need some sweets in my life before baby pops out.

Currently loving: I am loving that I have a bassinet next to my bed, a crib in the baby nursery (with new Aden & Anais sheets that are SO stinking soft!), and car seat in the car! It's so real... even Dan said, all we need now is a baby to come! :)  
Currently hating: I can't touch my feet and desperately need a pedicure, I can't put my socks on so I am barefoot 24/7, I don't fit into any maternity clothes right now since my belly is so low, I can't breathe just from walking up or down the basement steps... and, what else? I am just over being pregnant right now. SO over it. 

Baby Bump | 9 Months + 1 Week

HOORAY, FULL TERM! 

How far along: 37 Weeks / 9 Months + 1 Week
Due Date: December 4, 2015 was our original due date. However, the doctor we saw at our maternal fetal medicine ultrasound showed us that baby is measuring ahead and we are now at November 30, 2015 for our due date based on baby measurements - which is likely more accurate anyway. I can't believe it's only weeks away! November sure did come up fast this year!

Baby Size: Approx. 19.25 in. / 6.3lbs. / about the size of a winter melon (what's that? lol!) 

Weight Gain: Since my 36 week weigh in I have lost 2 lbs. but who's counting! ;)
Gender: GIRL 
Sleep: Sleeping at night has been great this week! I have been tossing and turning and getting up every hour or so to pee however, when I do sleep it's so wonderful. I am actually waking up feeling refreshed instead of zombie-like but then crash at nap time with Lennon for a couple of hours. Preggo's need their sleep! 
I am feeling: This week has been a game changer in this pregnancy. I had my checkup this week and unfortunately I am no where near dilation or cervix softening. However, all of the other pre-labor signs are there... and I won't go into detail other than crazy cramps, back pain and really, really, really, low pains. I have to stop what I am doing a lot to catch my breath, sit down from swollen feet or leg pain and take it easy. It's not easy with a toddler at home or having a hubby that comes home from work exhausted so I don't get a foot rub nightly... but we are managing with lots of movie time, arts and crafts and cuddles! Our little girl has definitely dropped this week even more than last week, it's just a waiting game now! Excitement for it to be over aside, I am getting REALLY nervous. I mean, I remember Lennon's birth... I remember how painful it was but I remember having warning signs, signs telling me what to do, when to go to the hospital, etc. My water broke with Lennon and that was it... time to head in. This time, I am really nervous for the warning signs, contractions, wondering what it will all be like, how fast or slow I will progress, praying we make it to the hospital in time to deliver, praying our Doula makes it, our midwife, etc. I am worried about so many things... I know I will be in good hands but I can't help but wonder what it will all be like! Just so thankful that we have a Doula and she's really reassuring me that this will be a great experience. 
Cravings: This week my cravings have been so random;  root beer - fountain pop, deviled eggs, cheesecake, cookies, spicy food with those things, and tea, lots of tea. Top two weird things: Chocolate Cheesecake and Deviled Eggs and if I would have had them in the house I so would have eaten them together. Eww, right? I know but this preggo is craving some weird things lately. It's so odd! My mother in law rocks and made me deviled eggs that were so delicious, I ate the entire plate in 1 day. Oops! Then, my mom made boiled dinner - my favorite and has leftovers for me! YUM. YUM. YUM. On top of my family being so generous and making my favorite things, last night my parents took us all out to Olive Garden so I could get my favorite pasta that's been on my cravings list all pregnancy. FINALLY got it, and it hit the spot. It's been a good week for this preggo. 

Currently loving: I am loving the fact that it's real now... we are actually in the last few weeks and in 4 weeks OR LESS, hopefully WAY LESS, we will have a baby girl in our arms. It's crazy to think we have made it to the end and our family of 4 will soon be complete. I am so anxious to get the car seat put in, set up the bassinet, wash the last few outfits, blankets and sheets for her and of course meet her! I am getting anxious.
Currently hating: I am hating a lot of things these days; the pains in my ribs, pelvis and back, going to the store and waddling like a penguin, chasing Lennon and getting out of breath, bending over to tie my shoes, shave my legs, paint my toes, lying on my side having feet in my ribcage, bruised ribs, never feeling like my thirst is quenched - and I drink water all day long, eating spicy foods and getting heartburn, emotions - I am crying about everything, nothing fits me anymore - not even Dan's t-shirts, every time I get out of bed I wonder if my water is going to burst (fingers crossed it does), Braxton Hicks are annoying, contractions every now and then suck and take my breath away, Luke lays on my tummy every chance he gets (he knows somethings up now!), anddddd.... there's probably more but right now I am brain-farting. Oh, add that to the list, brain farts... they suck!

Happy 37 weeks! 

Baby Bump | 9 Months

9 MONTH UPDATE 

How far along: 36 Weeks / 9 Months

Due Date: December 4, 2015 was our original due date. However, the doctor we saw at our maternal fetal medicine ultrasound showed us that baby is measuring ahead and we are now at November 30, 2015 for our due date based on baby measurements - which is likely more accurate anyway. I can't believe it's only weeks away! November sure did come up fast this year!

Baby Size: Approx. 18 inches / 5.25lb. / she's the size of a honeydew, sweet and delish!

Weight Gain: Since 2 weeks ago I have gained 1 lb. and since my pre-pregnancy weight I have gained 4 lbs. I can't complain! All of these morning pre-natal workouts are obviously paying off, thank goodness!

Gender: GIRL 

Sleep: Sleeping at night is so, awfully terrible, exhausting and not relaxing at all. Thank goodness for naps during the day with Lennon or I would be a zombie mombie! I go to bed at a decent time with Dan, we usually fall asleep after an hour or so of TV and then the fun begins. Not the kind of bedroom fun you're thinking, either! I am up every two hours, on the dot! Starting at 11 or 12... then it's 2:21 AM, 4 - something, 6 - something... then up for the day anytime between 7-7:30 when Dan's alarm goes off and Lennon tip toes into our room. It's so exhausting! Between the pee breaks, tossing and turning to get comfortable, throw a pillow under my back so I can sleep on my back, move to get a foot out of my ribcage, or to relieve numb hips and back pain... it's really never a good nights sleep for me and baby. Any amount of sleep I can get I am grateful for!  

I am feeling: I have been feeling very crampy lately; back pain, low pelvic pain, increased pressure and sharp pains every now and then with those pesky BH that always creep up when I don't drink enough water or take it easy enough. I have had bruised ribs this past week... a lot of little jabs to the lower sternum aren't comfortable and I literally pushed her foot out of my right side ribs the other day thinking it would either break my rib or her foot. It was so painful and now it hurts to breathe. There's a lot more going on down there but that's TMI for this blog... and you don't care to know. But, we are getting closer. We will find out more on Monday at my 36 week appointment and ultrasound just how close we are but for now, I am praying to keep her cooking for the next week so we can hit the safe 37 week mark but then I am all for birthday party time... someone please bring a cake! I can't wait to meet her!

Cravings: I am slightly over-obsessed with Qdoba right now. A: they know me and Lennon by name in there. B: Their cookies are TO DIE FOR. C: I could eat it every day and never get sick of it. We are there AT LEAST once a week, my husband is about to kill me with the amount of money going out to Qdoba each month... I don't even want to calculate it! I just know that it's all I want and need right now and no one can take that away from me or baby. D: afterthought... I hope I still love it this much when I am not preggo! I'd hate to give it up.

Currently loving: I am loving my growing belly even though it's full of new stretch marks and of course they're really deep, really purple and Lennon thinks I have "boo-boo's" all over my belly. It just means that from birth on out I am so wearing mom-suits AKA one pieces. It's so amazing feeling all of the moves, the wiggles, hiccups and watching my belly do the wave before bedtime. I look forward to holding her, snuggling and kissing her cheeks and spending every day with her. It's crazy that it could be any time from NOW to 40-ish weeks that we can meet our little lady.

Currently hating: I am HATING all of these emotions lately. I cry over EVERY THING, I throw temper tantrums like a little kid and when Lennon is having an attitude day, watch out... momzilla is out. On top of that I have major preggo brain lately... Just this week I have forgotten to add water to my muffins while baking, forgot to make Luke breakfast which ended up in me feeding him nearly two hours late, and today to top it off I locked myself out of the house because I forgot my keys were on the counter, so I grabbed the ladder and climbed in the window. I am thinking that right now I am worse than the darn scarecrow with no brain!

I thought it would be fun to look back on all my bump pictures... it's crazy how much it's changed since 9 weeks! Grow baby, grow!

Now let's just hope there aren't too many more of these weekly bump photos and the next one you see is of baby girls arrival! Fingers crossed... because I am super excited to put a cute hat on her head, take pictures of her all swaddled up and of course announce her name to all of you! :) I CAN'T WAIT. Can we just skip past the labor part though? I am still slightly nervous for this all natural, no meds birth we have planned. YIKES.

XOXO.

Time Flies When You're Having Fun

This was me... 4 years ago. I was carefree, in love and wanting a new adventure. So, when my boyfriend was offered a job in DC and decided that it was time to move out there I was stuck with the hardest decision in my life. I faced the choice of moving to a big city with him, or trying to make a long distance relationship work... for who knows how long. I didn't have too long to think about it, his decision was made... he was leaving in a few days after finding out he got the job. It took me longer to make up my mind but in the end, I decided to move.

Who knew that it would change my life forever?

Oh, Timehop. It really is the greatest app ever, letting us relive all of our old memories, reminisce and relive all of the fun times we had. It's so fun looking back at everything! 

So, exactly 4 years ago I moved to Virginia. I was emotional to say the least, it was extremely difficult to leave my family, my friends but really exciting to go on a new adventure to a city I have never been to and start fresh. 

Two weeks after arriving in VA and getting settled in Dan and I knew something wasn't feeling right. I was sick, always so tired, an emotional wreck (which we both blamed on the home sickness), and to top it all off I hated my new job so I quit the first day there. When Dan and I were moving in I tripped over the stupid curbs they have there, (thank you clumsiness) I sprained my ankle and was stuck climbing 4 flights of stairs with crutches to our apartment. Needless to say, my first week or two were miserable!

That's when I realized something wasn't right. 

I knew that it wasn't all due to being homesick, or crabby and tired. 

So, that's when I peed on a stick.

Dan looked at it...

We cried.

We were PREGNANT! 

Here I was, in an apartment, in a huge city, without my best friend or mom, without my friends, family, unknown surroundings, without my OBGYN... and I am pregnant. I thought I was emotional before but these new emotions took me to a whole new level of emotional hell. It was a long couple of months from there... Things took a turn for the worst when I had an emotional break, couldn't handle it anymore and moved home, alone. 

With me moving home and realizing Dan was staying in DC, realizing I was going to be doing this all alone was the hardest part of our entire relationship. We went through hell, and back, and then went through hell again... and repeated that cycle many, many, many times. Our relationship was falling apart, and at times completely fell apart as this beautiful miracle was growing bigger daily. 

A lot happened in the few months I moved home and Dan was working his dream job in DC... I started back at my old job, got a new job, worked my ass off for both of them and was living back at home with my parents who were so amazing, helpful and giving during that time. I used their car, they saved all of my money for me, I never went out, never spent a dime, never had friend time... just lots of family time, working time, and lots of boring nights alone. When the deadline came to get my own place and find an apartment for the little one and I, things were finally on the mend. At that time, Dan moved back home... we began to restore the lost trust, rebuild the pieces of the horrible emotional wreckage and become a team again. We knew that the biggest challenge was still ahead of us and we needed to do it together. 

So, 4 years ago our lives changed and have continued to change ever since. We have been through hell and back, and it's made us stronger, more trustworthy and loyal people, we are happier and have a healthier relationship. Ever since, we haven't left each others side. It's crazy to think that 4 years back wasn't that long ago, but so much has happened. We have been blessed with an amazing daughter, a beautiful home, a dog (totally my fault) and another baby on the way... all because we took a chance on love so long ago. We took a leap of faith, decided to make it work, and chose LOVE over anything else that may have mattered at the time. We wouldn't be where we are at now if it weren't for those moments... come hell or high-water, in sickness and health, till' death do us part... we are in it together and we are in it forever.

Dear Daughter,

You'll always be my first...

When I saw that title on a blog I knew that I had to read it. It turned out that a minute into it I was wiping the tears away just so I could see to read on. That's when I read, "You, you, you. You're the one who burst my heart wide open. You taught me what wild, uncontrollable, unlimited, unconditional love feels like. You changed everything. You turned me into a mom." 

Every word out of this mama's mouth typed into this blog are spot on, so true. 

You must read it... but if you're a mom of two you will cry, so grab a tissue! 
You'll Always Be My First - Amy Wruble

Lennon, you're my baby. The day that I found out I was pregnant my life changed. I did everything with YOU in mind, what I ate, what I did, where I was, who I was around and even what I wore revolved around YOU from that day forward. When you were born our lives changed, my life was more beautiful every single day because you were in it. I smiled when you smiled, I cried when you cried - mostly out of sadness because I didn't know how to make you happy in that moment, and many times out of frustration wanting to be a better soother, cuddler, boo-boo healer, a better mom. When I held you the world went away, everything around me was quiet, the sun felt warmer, the winter days felt cozier, the only thing that mattered was you and I. 

I wrote a blog when you were just 6 months old, My Teacher, I cried reading it again because of the truth to it. You taught me how to love, how to be patient, kind and caring, how to let the dishes wait, let the cell phone go to silent and most importantly how to be a mom. I am who I am because of YOU and I am so grateful for that every single day. Every single day you continue to teach me patience and kindness, love for God and love for family. You still teach me every day to love life. We love to explore the little things in life, embrace the silly things, dress up and act like a fool, just because it's fun and you love it. 

Now, you're 3 years old and you're preparing for this life changing event of becoming a big sister and welcoming her into our lives. You are going to be so kind, so loving and so gentle with her. I just know that you will be great with her! I am anxious to see the look in your eyes when you meet her, see the way you smile when you hold her and hear you say, "I love you" with as much love as I had when I said it to you for the very first time. I know it's scary, it's a new change and there will be times when it's frustrating when we can't do everything together as just the two of us anymore. I am nervous for that too, really scared actually to see how you will react to the change and how you embrace it. But, you must know that we will be embracing it together. As you grow into a big sister, and me into a second time mom, we will be embracing this change together and learning to love our new family of 4 in a new way. There may not be as many adventures to the store, trips to the park on a random afternoon, or ice cream trips but we will have fun, we will do things together, we will embrace little sister being here, play with her, play when she's sleeping and still color tons of pictures.

But, as for now before baby sister arrives I will snuggle you every moment I can, I will kiss you a million times a day and always say I LOVE YOU. I will color with you when you want me to, I will play barbies for hours on end, I will chase you around the backyard and hide from swamp monsters and I will run up and down the road with you while you ride your bike. I will watch you sleep peacefully, I will remember each moment and try to never forget it. I will cherish every moment with you, just you and I because soon it will all change... 

As she said in her blog, "So when you're feeling frustrated because I'm nursing your sister instead of playing dress-up, or because I might use stern words with you but not her (she's just a baby), or because I can't stop talking about how cute she is (Mom likes infants the way you like ponies), know that there is more than enough love for both of you, because of the ever-expanding place in my heart that you made. You, you, you. You will always be my first."

I love you, Lennon.

XO