Mommy's Whine Time: White, Blue, Old & New

White dress, diamond ring,

blue flower, shiny shoes... The whole shebang!!

So last night I had a dream...

The kind of dream that feels so real, so happy and so magical. I felt SO happy.

I had a dream I was getting married.

It could be the fact that my best friend is texting me all the time talking about her wedding plans... Or, it could be the fact that I am so happy with my life, my daughter, and my amazing boyfriend. Or, maybe I am just being a girl... Well, that one is most likely! Who knows, but it's all I think about.

One year ago I would have never pictured my life being as perfect as it is right at this moment. One year ago I didn't know what I wanted out of life. I didn't know who I was. But this year has changed me. It has been the most challenging, yet most amazing year of my life. And now I can't picture my life being any different.

I can see my future now,

I know what I want out of life and I know who I am.

I am a loyal girlfriend, I am an amazing mother, and I am a true friend to those who stuck by my side through the hard times. I am now excited for my future with my new family. I am excited to learn new things, go back to school, get a good career, provide for my family... and eventually, hopeully sooner than later... marry the man who has made my dreams come true. He has stuck by my side through the hardest of times, held my hand when I needed him most and he has become the best father to our little girl. I am so blessed... and I can't wait for that day!!

BUT, That day isn't here yet... So for now all I can do is live vicariously through my best friend that's getting married soon, and pinterest. Oh, pinterest! I swear, if I could afford a wedding planner someday I would hand her my wedding board and say "have at it!!"

Oh, the beauty of dreaming...

The dream ring