Wednesday, January 7, 2015

I Need Her, too.

You know, I read this blog early this morning while I was drinking my coffee and cried a little at the reality of it. The day is half over and I find myself deeply pondering the thought of what the blog was about and how true it is for many moms out there, especially ME! You can read the Blog too  - Here
(Grab the kleenex first!)

The truth is... Of course our children need us. But. Maybe... Just maybe... we need them MORE. 

Days like today my anxiety has been high & I haven't stopped running circles around my house, the two L's, my in-laws and my hubs. Not to mention, we currently have not one but two major house projects going on right now! So, while I am frantically trying to get things done I am also trying not to step in wet paint, or dog pee that I must have missed while I was running around, try not letting the dog eat the wet paint brushes in the pan, answer every "Why" my daughter asks annnnnnd focus on my projects. Yeah, right. It wasn't possible  without an Ativan. (Sigh). So when it was time for L to lay down for a nap we tried Nani, even Dad tried... Nope, she wanted Mommy. She screamed and cried for a few minutes with Dad until I set down the paint brush and ran to the rescue. Sure, I was frustrated as I looked at her bright red face and listened to her screaming & whining but I gave Dad the OK to leave and I laid with her. She immediately grabbed my face and snuggled into me. She was yawning while she said "Mama I love you so many peices!". I cuddled her tight and said I love you so many peices too buggie. I realized what the blog is preaching to moms everywhere is that they need us... To cuddle and love them even when the world is crazy around ha. But, even just as important... We need them. I took a deep breath, closed my eyes and for about 15 minutes while she fell fast asleep I let the world go while still holding it in my arms. 

& it felt truly amazing.


XO, K.


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